I feel like you all deserve a bit of an explanation as to what has happened with regards to why I seem to no longer submit drawings.
Here's the thing: I can't.
Submitting drawings and art is predicated on my actively creating it for submission. I'm not. I honestly have not completed a picture since May 2011. It's not that I don't want to draw, it's that I haven't had it in me to do so. It's like I've forgotten how.
It feels like the painting for ILackCreativity
and his wife was a fluke.
I think this dry spell of art began in 2009, if anyone recalls that day that I submitted the entirety of my Miadhachain Legacy
art from the DecemberTwentySixth
account. That seems to be the beginning of this. Because that is around the time that my life went wonky and it hasn't seen fit to straighten out yet. Loads of stuff happened around then and life seems to have been one disrupting thing after another.
All in all, life has not been particularly conducive to finding the time/inspiration to draw. And then whenever I DO draw, the picture in progress always seems SO WRONG that I want to cry and wind up pretending I never made the attempt.
In short, it's not that I don't WANT to draw. It's that I've lost my nerve to. Something about it has me inherently scared and I haven't had the time to crack open what this block is so I can destroy it.
And that is why there have been no drawings in a painfully long time. Because apparently I have some sort of issues that I never used to.
...I miss drawing... I miss knowing that I was good at it...
ANYWAY. Maybe now that I'm heading into 3rd year university will let me do figure out how to get over this. We shall see. In the meantime, all you're probably going to see are snatches of writing and photographs.